Wednesday, July 27, 2005

so...yeah...i have a question

everyone i know is posting pics of themselves and their kids on their blogs...should i post mine??

Monday, July 18, 2005

pics, part 2



this gentleman hadn't seen his son...ever. and this is his sweet little wife...he was one of the last ones off the plane!!

pics of the flight






i wrote a few weeks ago about a flight of troops coming home ... here ya go!

Monday, July 11, 2005

five years ago today

"saw a man in the movies that didn't have a heart
how i wish i could give him mine
then i wouldnt have to feel it breaking all apart, and this emptiness inside would suit me fine

its times like these i wish i were the tin man
you could hurt me all you wanted...i'd never even know
i'd give anything just to be the tin man...
i wouldn't have a heart, and i wouldn't need a soul

i couldn't see your leaving coming, it took me by surprise
even now, still seems like a dream
but i know i cant be dreaming cuz as i lay down each night, the pain's so great that it won't let me sleep

its times like these i wish i were the tin man
you could hurt me all you wanted...i'd never even know
well i'd give anything just to be the tin man
i wouldn't have a heart, and i wouldn't need a soul
i'd give anything just to be the tin man
i wouldnt have a heart
and i wouldn't miss you so "

it still feels like it just happened...all of it. sometimes i still wonder how i came through it and made it to the other side.

i think of you every day. i miss you every day. and i can't wait until the day that i can see you again.

i love you ... and i thank you for everything you taught me. your great-granddaughter is getting bigger every day, and is becoming quite the young lady. thank you for giving me the tools to bring her up the right way.

again - i love you. and i miss you.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

remember our conversations and read between the lines

its very rare that i mention names here, because for the most part, i like to remain anonymous. only a few people that actually know me have this web address, and i like it that way. i've used this as a forum, however, to communicate things that i have found difficult to address in real life. i tend to be a better writer than speaker, and at times, i have used the words of other people to get my point across. this is no exception...and to the person this is for - you know who you are. we talked about this very thing in a conversation a couple of nights ago. i can't sleep, i've had this song on my mind all day, and i hope my mind will stop spinning once i get this out.

"i hope it’s not too late to call, i couldn’t wait a moment more
i don’t know what else to do, i need to ask a favor...
check behind each of your doors, search throughout your rooms and halls
secret corners, look there too...i think i left my heart with you
don’t forget to remember, cuz you’re always on my mind...
i don’t care if i’ve lost my heart this time
if you find it, keep it safe - wrapped within your warm embrace
i could be wrong, that’s nothing new...but i think i left my heart with you
don’t forget to remember, cuz you’re always on my mind...
i don’t care if I’ve lost my heart this time
i’m not beggin’ but …maybe you could be so kind to make a home for this heart of mine
maybe i could live there too...i think i left my heart with you
think i left my heart...i think i left my heart with you"

i don't think it, i know it, though. and i'm fairly sure that i don't want it back, no matter how difficult, no matter how long it takes.

~b